Sunday, April 17th, 2005
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11:49 pm
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Thursday, April 7th, 2005
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2:04 pm
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im leaving Monday April 18th and i shall return on September 5th.
come hang out with me before i leave
<3
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Monday, March 7th, 2005
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3:27 pm - interesting...
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 | You scored as Alcohol. Woooooooooo man. Party on! But you better chill out after you get outta college, cuz you don't want to be an asshole alcoholic; an embarassment to the family. Never drink and drive, and think about the damage alcohol does to your liver.
Alcohol | | 69% | Cocaine | | 56% | Marijuana | | 56% | Inhalents | | 56% | Mushrooms | | 50% | Ecstacy | | 50% | None! | | 19% | </td>
What's your ideal drug?
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Monday, February 21st, 2005
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12:13 pm
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Attention! Attention!
may I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room if only, if only for one second. will you hear what I have to say? oh yeah did i meantion when I see you it stings like hell, to the fact that we could have something that will never happen.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _kindofperfect_
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Saturday, February 5th, 2005
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9:46 pm
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i FINALLY got my cd from dan. keep in mind it is my birthday gift and my birthday was in october. oh well i love it.
dont forget to add my new jounral if you want. just keep in mind its friends only, so comment to be added! _kindofperfect_
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Friday, January 28th, 2005
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1:20 pm
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_kindofperfect_ ...that is my new journal. i will still write in this one because that one is friends only. comment here or there to be added.</span>
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Monday, January 24th, 2005
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11:07 pm - deep inside the corner of my mind im attached to you <3
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nothing has been going on with me what so ever. except for the fact that ive been sick. i didnt go to work last monday because i felt like poo, then i didnt go saturday or sunday because it got worse. i went to the doctors today and i have bronchitis and slight traces, or an early case of pneumonia. the medicine i got should have it gone by the weekend but if its not then i have to go back and see him. they also said my blood preasure was very low and when they went to hear my heart beat they couldnt hear my lungs very well so i had to get an x-ray and they said there is a streak or something in my lungs..so i dont know. doctors scare me!
other then that im pretty pissed off at work. when people decide to walk out who stays late to take care of the shit they left behind..that would be me! when people decide to be a no call/no show 3 days in a row who stays late again..that would be me! who comes in when they are needed, comes in early and stays late EVERY night they work...that would be me also. well now they decided to move me back to the snack bar because im not dependable, and this is all because i got sick. which is total bullshit because i was really sick. i wasnt just faking it, calling in and then running around all weekend. i have been lazy and in my pjs since saturday morning. and im not all that mad that im back in the snack bar but its the reasons that they put me back there that piss me off the most, and to top it off they fill my spot at the counter with faith..the girl who calls in AT LEAST once a week, she once called in because she fell and said she couldnt walk. she came in the next day to show me a tiny bruise on her knee. grrr. so now im pissed. i decided im going to go to the person who is above my boss because what he is doing to me is totally not fair at all!
today kevin bought tickets for nfg/reggie..i supprised lisa by buying her one, because i know how much she likes reggie and nfg. lisa, kevin and i are all going to see armor for sleep too. and on feb. 3rd kevin and i are going to see the secret machines. i probably shouldnt go becuase ive missed so much work. but im gonna request the day off and if they dont give it to me then i will just call in. since im so NOY dependable. hmmm i hope i can drag kevin to see fall out boy. it wouldnt be the same if he didnt go with me, becuase i had so much fun last time just dacing with him and singing all the words.
I <3 fall out boy!
well this is all
I <3 you kevin
current mood:  sick
current music: Ryan Cabrera // True
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Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
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1:37 pm
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there are so many good shows coming up...
Fall Out Boy/Midtown/The Academy Is..
Matchbook Romance/Motion City Soundtrack
Straylight Run
Armor For Sleep
The Secret Machines
New Found Glory/Reggie and the Full Effect
The Starting Line
now. i hope i can get all these days off work
current mood: rest assure im moving on.
current music: i miss you less with each day youre gone
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Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
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1:06 am - i dont want to feel this way forever.
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im going crazy. literally!
ive never been so insane about everything in my ENTIRE life.
ive been going crazy on kevin like no other, things are just so shitty.
im looking for a new job. i mean the bowling alley is incredibly easy but im getting so sick of working 6 days a week and going to school. im sick of eating dinner everynight by myself because nobody is up when i get home from work at midnight. im sick of never seeing my friends/family. im sick of going from work to school, work to school. im sick of feeling left out. im sick of everything.
i need a change, a serious change.
and now its snowing outside. boo! snow is stupid.
i hate winter and snow, and most of all i hate cold cold cold weather.
its all for the fucking birds!
does anybody know where i can work. i dont need a sweet job, just one that will work around school and make sure im gone by 9pm. 10pm the latest. i applied at Lovers Lane and Sams Club. im not getting my hopes up.
i hope i find a different job that will let me give a 2 week notice at the bowling alley. even though i hate it so much there at times i cant just walk out and leave em hanging.
on a positive note. ive discovered a new love for the sport of bowling(which i guess is nify because i work at a bowling alley). kevin and i went yesterday and today. im not the greatest bowler but we might join a league this summer or maybe in the fall with my parents. who knows!
i also have tomorrow off, which is nice. i have school til 4 then im hanging out with kevin until he has school. when he goes to school i will probably just sit here and watch SAVED and take a nap then i will hang out with him when he gets out of school. that will be my exciting day off.
there arent many people i wanna hang out with these days. if you are one of them and you are getting that vibe from me i do apologize. ive just been going through a rough time.
i guess i shall go watch a movie and go to bed, i have school tomorrow.
this concludes my update.
<3
EDIT:
i totally forgot...I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT BEING SO DAMN COLD IN MY HOUSE!
current mood:  cold
current music: UnderOATH // The Changing Times
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Sunday, January 16th, 2005
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8:06 pm
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so you packed up
and left town unannounced
you left a note by the door that said youd gone away
and you said that the boy that we all thought we knew
was just in our heads it was never you
and you said "im sorry, just dont miss me tonight"
well this time its over and you wont cave in
and its sure to be summer before i see you again
so ill teach myself to never let you down
never forget the lessons you learned
and i wont forget all the nights that we burned
counting stars in the backyard
morning came too soon
and with every word i wished id said
theres another minute where i died instead
cause the fact that you were gone was starting to kill me
christmas is coming and you wont be here
to feed me your lines and claim to still care
yeah ive heard it before
so dont think that i would forget it
i miss bright new york nights
and the promise that this time we'll be just fine
when all i really wanted was for you to hold me.
my weekend was good to me. then again when isnt seeing racheal good?
i did tonnns of driving but got to hang out with all of my friends.
this week holds lots of work and school. ick!
current music: Taking Back Sunday // Your Own Disaster
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Monday, January 10th, 2005
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12:09 am
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i am so happy that i had today off :)
friday at work was hell. complete hell! i had to come it at 4 and so did J. well it was 4 and i was there but J wasnt. 5 came and went and still no J. 6 came and went and STILL no J. then kevin came over to me and told me they hadnt been able to get ahold of J and since he was supposed to close i would have to stay late, possibly MUCH later (i was supposed to get off at 10) so of course this upsets me a ton so being the emotional girl i am i started crying. right there at the front counter. and when i tried to tell people i was ok i started crying more. but i eventually stopped and i ran 3 leagues by myself. kevin was incredibly proud of me. well he got ahold of rick and told him he could take his time but he wanted him to come in and close. so at about 10:30 rick came in and once he got caught up on the stuff i didnt do i got to leave(which was at like 11) well after that i went to kevins. we watched about 1/2 of Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle but then he fell asleep so i came home and went to bed.
i was supposed to work at 9 saturday morning but i woke up at 8:30 to about 4.5 inches of snow so i called them and told them i would be a little late, they didnt mind at all. so i got there at like 9:30 and we had a seniors tournament so it was incredibly boring. well there was a party for 30 coming in at 2 and faith was supposed to come in at 11 and work in the snack bar with laura but faith called in so when this party came around i pretty much did EVERYTHING. i took orders for all the shoes. made all the pizzas, ran everything down to them. i was beat. when they paid they told me the rest was for me and they gave me a 10 dollar tip. i was very happy. then kevin gave me a gift cirtificate to Papa Vinos because i had been such a big help and a good worker the past couple days. it feels good to actually be appreciated at work. sometime during saturday i think Chris(one of our porters) quit and i made David(our other porter) hate me. its kinda funny but not really...on friday david was supposed to work from like 4-1 well he called at like 4:10 and said he would be late because he was getting his car fixed well he never came in and i guess sometime during the night his "uncle" called and told kevin "david didnt feel well so i gave him some food and put him to bed" when kevin told me this i had to laugh. i mean david is my age he doesnt need to 'be put to bed'. well david worked saturday and he was at the counter and so was kevin and they were laughing about 'being put to bed' and kevin asked me what i said on friday night so i repeated it and david laughed then i said that i thought his uncle was never at his house(because thats what david had told me before) and he said he is there on weekends and i guess it really pissed david off. i tried to talk to him and he was like "fuck you, you think i was mean before im gonna be real mean now" and i tried to talk to him a bit later and he was like "fuck you. dont fuckin talk to me" so i let it be. when he was punching out i said i was sorry and he rolled his eyes and left. so whatever.
today i had to go to a baby shower, which was nice. then i hung out with kevin <3
i guess while i was gone kevin called me to see if i could work tomorrow because nobody can get ahold of J yet. i told him i was already on the schedule.
i work tomorrow 5-close. tuesday 5-11. i have wednesday off. i work thursday 5-12. and friday 4-10
then i have saturday and sunday off because racheal is coming down :) im so excited!
ohhh..i think im gonna give cedar point another shot this summer. is this a good idea or a bad one?
current mood:  drained
current music: Taking Back Sunday // You Know How I Do
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Friday, January 7th, 2005
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1:27 am - being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up...
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stress stress stress. that is my life right now. stress stress stress.
work pretty much takes up all my time (well 6 out of 7 days a week) which doesnt bother me that much considering i will be getting a nice pay check and it gives me stuff to do. but now that im starting school i will go from school to work monday, tuesday, thursday then i will work saturday and sunday. which isnt that bad, that means i get to see kevin all day wednesday and all day friday...WRONG! he has class on wednesday from 6-9 and then he will probably have to work friday nights, and since i work at 9am saturday mornings i cant be out too late and i cant be out too late saturday nights either because i have to work at 9am sunday mornings as well. this is the true test of our love :\
i wish i was a kid again. or at least back in high school. back when i didnt have to worry about working to pay for a car, or working at all because if i needed money my mom would give it to me. i loved when my only worry was making it to class on time and making sure i would graduate. and now the older i get the more i NEED a job. because if i dont job i have no car, no spending money, no school, NO NOTHING!
i get paid next thursday and i plan on cashing that check, because it wont be that big and racheal is coming down so i need to have spending money. but my next check will be for like 350-400 dollars so i plan on putting AT LEAST 200 in the bank and keeping the rest out to get me through the next 2 weeks. since i will be in school and at work pretty much all day everyday i wont be needing much spending money so i plan on putting AT LEAST 100 in the bank every check. because i have a car to pay for and by next year id like to be able to buy my own car, and possibly get a cell phone.
i was thinking about quitting the bowling alley and getting a different job that has hours where i can work like 5-9 but i think im going to stay. for one i feel really bad for kevin(my manager) because noah(our assistant manager) just up and quit, no notice no nothing so now kevin has all the hours to take care of and even though he loves his job(well claims to) i can tell how stressed he is. second, though every now and then there is a scheduling conflict everytime the schedule is wrong kevin is more then happy to fix it and give me the right days off or the right hours. and lastly, i really like where i work and who i work with, yes i know i complain but i mean who honestly hasnt complained about their job(no matter how much they claim to love it) and i really like working at the counter(even though rick makes me wanna cry half the time, and sometimes i wish i was back in the snack bar)and i really like who i work with. the porters, counter people, bar tenders, snack bar hell..even the mechanics and people in the pro shop are nice as hell and are nice as hell to me. and i mean who could honestly hate a place that is so friendly?
holy hell. this is loooong, much longer then i expected.
goodnight
i love you kevin <3
current mood:  stressed
current music: Matchbook Romance // The Greatest Fall Of All Time
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Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
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12:24 am - i love it
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that is sexxxxxxxy..except for the name :(
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Monday, January 3rd, 2005
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11:37 pm - a little late
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2004 was a good year overall. i had an amazing relationship with an amazing guy. went to TONS of amazing shows. made some new friends. got reaquainted with old ones. had nights i barely remember. met tons of WAY sweet people. finally got my lip pierced(even though its gone now). lived on my own for a while. had the sweetest job ever!. hopefully 2005 will hold many of the amazing things 2004 did. lets keep the fingers crossed.
my news years wasnt anything special. i went over lisas and drank a little bit. we watched the ball drop and everybody made tons of noise. but this new years ended like 3 hours earlier then last new years did. i spent about an hour in her brothers room just talking. i went through alot of his stuff and he explained everything to me that i asked. i was a side of him that ive never seen before. it was nice
ive been working alot. but it isnt that bad but i may be quitting soon because im not sure if i can handle working til midnight then getting up and going to class the next morning. and i cant fuck around because if i fail then there goes my money for school :(
im friends with bobbie again. megan, bobbie and i are all friends again. im not exactly sure why i did what i did in the first place to make us not be friends. but its in the past and we are past that and now we talk and such. but in turn me being friends with bobbie has ruined my friendship with amber :\ im not exactly sure why but it did. i mean i know i talked alot of shit about bobbie but i mean who honestly hasnt said mean stuff about someone then apologized and became friends with them?
i work pretty much the rest of the week. i work tomorrow from 5-11. thursday from 5-12. friday from 4-10. saturday from 9-5 then i probably work sunday even though i asked for it off because i have a baby shower.
then next weekend(the 15th to be exact) racheal is coming down here and im MAD excited. i havent seen her since October and it sucks :( i got her christmas gift now im just waiting to see her. we were supposed to go out to dinner with a big group of girls that night but im not sure if its going on anymore. or if im even invited still because of the whole 'not being friends with amber' thing. hmmph.
i havent talked to dan in like 2 months. its wierd because i used to talk to him like every night and then it just stopped. i dont know if he is even alive still. yeahhh i guess this is long enough
current mood:  content
current music: Taking Back Sunday // This Photograph is Proof
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Monday, December 27th, 2004
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12:07 am - one more thing..
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My journal is called _____ because _____.
My subtitle is _____ because _____.
My friends page is called _____ because _____.
My user name is ____ because _____.
-My journal is called 'This is me with the words on the tip of my tounge' because it is a Taking Back Sunday lyric and I think it describes me and my journal.
-My subtitle is called 'And my eye through the scope, down the barrel of a gun because it is the second part to the lyric that im using as my title.
-My friends page is called 'Alone we stand, together we fall apart' because it is a lyric by The Strokes and it reminds me of friends.
-My user name is 'Thepolishoneder' because in high school ryan jackson started calling me 'The great polish wonder' and i changed the spelling because of the movie 'that thing you do' because their name was the 'The wonders' and lenny thought it should be spelled 'The ONEders'(like the BEATles) and their first show people were asking about the '0-neders'(oo-nee-dee-rs) and since im polish and blonde i thought it would be funny to spell wonder, oneder! gosh that was long
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Saturday, December 25th, 2004
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1:19 pm
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Happy Christmas!
i didnt get that much for christmas, i guess that is one disadvantage of growing up in this family but i got what i asked for. i got a Mp3 player, a new DVD player, 2 sets of earings(one pair is fancy from marshall fields and the other pair is long and has a star at the bottom from hot topic), a dragonfly necklace(from my sister because i made the comment that it reminded me of Co&Ca), the movie Saved and some new pjs. and i cant forget that kevin got me a new watch and Napoleon Dynamite...so far :)
i cant wait to give Lisa and Kevin their gifts. same with Katie and Racheal.
that is all i suppose
EDIT:
kevin got me a fall out boy shirt and a "digi", his sister got me the new cd by The Used and his parents gave me $25
<3
current mood:  creative
current music: Northstar // For Members Only
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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
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1:50 am - your mom goes to college
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I know you guys feel like a bunch of IDIOTS because i got the best FLIPPIN movie EVER. Its even more FLIPPIN SWEET then TOTS!
You think I got where I am today by dressing like Peter Pan over there?
.ps.
i dont see why the underwater community is against me. dont make me pull out your wiskers and eat you for dinner!
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Monday, December 20th, 2004
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1:19 am
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plans and junk..
Tomorrow im hanging out with Kevin all day.
Tuesday im hanging out with Kevin and im working 5-11.
Wednesday im hanging out with Kevin.
Thursday im hanging out with Kevin.(we are going ice skating i think)
Friday im going to my aunts with my family and Kevin.
Saturday im doing family stuff here and then im going to Kevins.
Sunday im going to my aunts with my family and Kevin.
plans are subject to change. and if you wanna hang out with both of us we are free almost everyday.
also.
who the fuck orderd this cold ass weather. i hate it!! :(
( pictures! )
current mood: Freezing
current music: Yellowcard
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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
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12:39 pm
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so i registered for my classes and this is what i have...
Monday
no class
Tuesday
Sociology 11am-12:25pm
Wednesday
Marriage and Family 1pm-3:55pm
Thursday
Sociology 11am-12:25pm
Friday
Arts and Crafts 9am-11:55am
Comp 1 1pm-3:55pm
but keep in mind that i will be working pretty much EVERY Tuesday, Friday(til about midnight), Saturday and Sunday..so i wont be around much
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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12:00 am
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i work tomorrow from 5-12.
i dont work wednesday.
i get paid thursday.
i work friday 4-10.
i work saturday 9am-5.
.ps.
i think im getting my lip re-pierced!
( dont let me drown before the work day ends. )
current music: Thursday
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